i wish i have done more

Everyday as I wake up at dawn

My mind starts working the moment I yawn

There were many things to do, o dear!

That’s why I hastily did my Subuh prayer

I didn’t have the time to sit longer to praise the lord

To me rushing out after prayer is nothing odd.

Since school I had been busy every minute

Completing my tutorials and handing it in

My studies took up most of my time always

Minimum time did I have to Allah to pray

Too many things to do, and zikir is rare,

For Allah, I really had no time to spare.

When I grew up and started my degree

Studying all day to secure my future

When I reached home, I prefer to have fun,

I chatted on the phone, on the yahoo messenger,

But I didn’t read much the book of heart, the Quran,

I spent too much time surfing the internet,

Sad to say my faith was falling flat.

The only time I have left is weekends

During which I prefer window shopping with friends

Or better yet I prefer to sit back and enjoy my cds and dvds

I couldn’t spare time to go to usrahs and daurahs

I’m too BUSY that’s my BIG EXCUSE…

I did my five prayers, but did so quickly,

After prayer, I didn’t sit longer to reflect quietly

I didn’t have time to help the needy ones

I was loaded with works as my precious time runs.

My life was already full of stress,

So I didn’t counsel as Muslim in distress,

I didn’t spent much time with muslims that can advice me,

Because I thought, doing so wont help me much,

It will be just a waste of time.

No time to share, with none Muslim about Islam;

Or even to my other fellow muslims who have rights on me,

Even though I know, inviting causes no harm

No time to do sunnah prayers at all

All this contribute to my iman fall…

I’m busy here, I’m busy there,

I have no time at all, that’s all I care

I went for religious lesson, just once in a while

Well, at least I do some, my nafs whispers,

Coz I’m too busy making a pile.

I worked all day, I slept all night

Too tired for tahajjud, and it seems no right

To me, studying as a living was already tough

So, I only did basic deeds but that’s not enough.

No time at all, to admire God’s creation

No time to praise Allah, and seek His Compassion

Although I know how short is my life,

For Islam, I really didn’t strive.

Finally the day comes, when the Lord calls for me

And I stood before Him with life history

I feel so guilty because I should have prayed more

I should have invited other muslims to Allah cause

I should strive more to learn about my deen,

Isn’t that what a Muslim live for

To thank Allah and do more good deeds

And the Quran is for us to read.

Now, at JUDGEMENT DAY, I’m starting to fret,

I wasted my life but it’s too late to regret,

My entry to paradise depend on my good behavior,

But I have not done enough, nor did proper prayer

My “good deed book” is given from my right

An angle opens my “book” and read out my plight.

Then the angle chided me

“O You Muslim servant, you are the one

Who is given enough time, yet not much is done

Do you know your faith is loose?

Saying “no time” is only an excuse.

Your “good deed book” should be filled up more

With all the good work you stood up for…

Hence I only recorded those little good deeds

As I say this, I know your eyes will mist

I was about to write even more, you see…

But I did not have the TIME to list”…

~ i wish i have done more~